things I am thankful for....

Ok I know it is a little cheesy to do this but I just gotta for my own sake. Ya see with my new meds I am having a hard time being or feeling happy, and then it is hard to be thankful for anything. So here goes...
I am thankful for..

My husband
(No I know this is a given but did I mention my bad moods, extreme cravings, and sick stomache where nothing tastes good. Well my sweet husband went and bought me a soda at 8pm last night got home and It just tasted bad for me so at 9:30pm he went and got me a 20 pack of cans, 2 litters, and another fountain just so somthing would taste good. Then at 1am he got up and made me potstickers because I was starving. yeah He is a pretty good guy1)

My kids
(This one is tough becuase my kids are great, but with my "New Personality" I have a hard time being around anyone. Gavin came up and hugged me "just cause", Cache offered to watch a movie with me "and I wont touch you mom" I hurt all over you see, Makenzie does EXTRA chores to help out and does them extra good so I don't have to worry, and Kaelee she puts up with me! She gets alot put on her shoulders and she hardly ever complains and ignores me pretty good when I yell! ya gotta love that talent)

Ok here is a stretch I am thankful for my "New med" because eventually they will make me healthier!

My Zuckie Dog
(She cuddles with the best and makes me get moving)

My small house
(I couln'd handle anything bigger right now and it keeps all my family close)

My fabric stash
(so I can mess around and not worry about wasting money)

My saintly friends
(In the last week I called one friend and just bawled as my hair began to fall out, anouther friend spent an hour talking about 13 year olds not judging my endless bad parenting, and one friend just called to say hi not knowing she made my day. I have so many friend who stick with me and I realize that right now I am hard to like!)

My computer
(It is seriously my escape from reality, I don't have to think I can just click through pretty, happy pictures, and know why the world is great!)

My bed
It has become my heaven and hell in one. I have a place to go and have quite, and my pillows catch many tears and laughter. One day I will be able to make my bed and have it last all day. I can't wait!

Snow
I love snow it is just a happy thing!

Rain
I love the atmosphere a good grey day makes, it makes it ok to curl up and stay in.

Sidewalks
For someone who has lived in the country most of my life the well maintained sidewalks are heaven.

Ok so I am running out of things for the moment. If it sounds like I am depressed I probably am, but I am so thankful for what I have. I have been told many, endless times all of the things I would never have and never be able to do. I have proven I can achieve anything I set my mind too and so making it through this dose of drugs is one more thing. I may end up bald, grumpy, and in pain but I will be here with my family! They really are the best in the whole world.

I hope everyone has as many things to be thankful for as I do, I realize that there are days when it is difficult to find anything to be thankful for, and on those days I find that I can truely be thankful for the challenges and trials because I am here to have them and they were chosen just for me, by someone who loves me and knows what I need.