Our "New" Life

Around Christmas I kept telling everyone I needed a change. A change of scenery, a change in adventure I didn't know. Well life has changed so much that it is as if we have gotten a new life. Is it better? I'll let you know when I have lived it for awhile. First we moved (yeah us), kids changed schools, mom quit tutoring, started upper level college courses (which is a BIG change), and Jay is working out of town. Jay's boss asked me how it was being married to a traveling salesmen, I think it is like being a single mom with a big supporter on the weekends. By Friday I need a break, by Sunday I dread Monday mornings. I take this as a good sign because Jay is still my best friend and I don't want him gone. I love every one's advice like,"you'll get more gone while he is gone" well that might be true if my kids left too. I figured out today that I could make some major changes in our home life and Jay would have no say. So here is my thoughts: Mac and Cheese multiple times a week, bedtime at 6pm (hey it might be good for them), chores have to be done before dad get home (yeah even with a week to accomplish this it wont happen), but most of all I have started a schedule. I'll let everyone know later how it all works.

The other big change in our life's is that the kids are just plain growing up! Makenzie came home complaining that someone did not like her (only if you know Kenzie would know how rare this is). I couldn't fix it for her anymore. Kaelee is just plain a young woman she can no longer be mistaken for a child (she is becoming one of my good friends. Gavin is really learning and not so lost, he has an attitude a mile wide and he thinks he is the man of the house, then my baby Cache is not a little boy no more, he can read most words, he gets bored of me and lets me know regularly. Oh how I miss when he thought I knew more than him.

Our "new" life is good it is different, and there are days I look around and think did we move to another state, but it is an adventure and we will make it through these changes and eventually beg for more!

New Pics

I will post new pics soon I promise

Febuary

Ok so it is Febuary 17,2010. It has been awhile since I last posted so here it goes. We started Febuary with Pnemonia for me and Jay just really sick. It is really pathetic when all of the kids get to stay home from school because neither mom or dad can get out of bed to wake them up let alone make breakfast. Then when we were feeling ever so slightly better we moved! Yeah! We finally took the plunge got past our fears, and with a little or a lot of motivation, we moved. Funny enough we moved to the one place I said I didn't even want to look. The Henderson Subdivision. Now I do not have any concrete reason why I disliked this place but I did not. Well against all of my best laid plains we are living on Park St. which connectts with Huckleberry Circle. Oh how is it unfair I wanted Hucklberry for an adress. To Jay's great dismay we are living on 1/4 acre lot with neighbors. He loved acres and no neighbors. We got rid of our beloved dogs they were to sick to justify making them live much longer. The kids love the house and the neighborhood. Gavin and Makenzie are going to Kennedy School. Now they walk to and from school. All of you know that causes me major anxiety but so far they love it. Kezie says she is making lots of friends so when she goes to the middle school next year she can have twice the friends. Gavin has caught up enough not to have to go to Title One and so he says he is now the smartest kid in school. Cache is thrilled that the school he will go to has a pencil machine. Kaelee wishes she could go to Young Womens out in Hibbard there is only one other Beehive in our new ward. I love our New House and Love the idea of being here for a long time. I love that no one can come in with out my permission. We are locking all of our doors which has lead to some funny moments, but it helps me feel safe (which is a big issue for me). I truely know the Lord is watching out for our little family. We are very busy as always. Makenzie is playing volleyball on the 12-14 yr old leage (she is 10) Kaelee is on the 14-16yr old team (she is 12). Gavin is getting so smart and Cache just keeps me hoping. Life is really good right now. I know we still have problems but we are togther and happy what more can we ask for.

Attitude

Have you ever noticed how attitude makes more difference than anything else? Wow this was a week for attitude so bear with me as I share my new and old insights on attitude. This week started with me as angry as ever, Kaelee's teacher had hurt Kaelee. I was ready to do battle, no one was messing with me. Jay offered Kaelee that he would shave his head and wear his leather jacket for the meeting with the teacher and principle. Kaelee begged him not to get her kicked out of school so Jay just did his ever intimidating, strong silent thing. The teacher was in tears before the end of the meeting, not because of Jay, as she explained that she loved Kaelee. The problem all came down to Kaelee's attitude! Kaelee has been trying hard to improve her attitude in that class and it seems to be helping, nothing else has changed. Jay had a great week at work he was excited and was doing great untill he had a bad day Wendsday and then he had to fight to keep his attitude up. It always amazes me that when he is positive he is unstoppable. Early in the week as Gavin was screamin at me that he did not want to do his job, I explained that he was choosing to have a bad attitude. He quickly changed his mood (as only a 7 yr old can) and was happy and pleasant and did his job beutifully. Then there was my work week. The boy I work with is smart. I'm not sure if he knows it or not becuase he always suprises me. He has be the model student all week, untill his mom told him he had to have ADHD. Now he believes that he has this condition and is trying to act it. Wow the power of Attitude. I got home from work today discourged, tired, and overall grumpy. My friend texted me and I couldn't even hide my bad attitude from her. I tried to take a nap but of course I couldn't sleep at sat and pondered my attitude. The week of battles has worn on me, and my attitude showed, Makenzie came home with a big smile on her face cheering me up imidiatly, then when I gave Cache Peanutbutter Crackers he exclaimed,"mom you the best!" I am still trying to have a positive attitude but my entire family has had a week of battles and thier great attitudes have made it better. So I am trying to have a good attitude becuase most of the time that is all I can control. Attitude it is my new secret weapon!

Happy New Year!

Ok the Fullers are excited for 2010. Jay has a job that he loves. Kenzie has hit the double digits (10), Gavin is excited to be baptized, Cache will start Kindergarten in August, I should have my associates degree by the end of the year and have moved onto my bachelors, and Kaelee will move onto Junior High. The girls are excited for club Volleyball. Jay is excited to actually get to go to some games. So yes the Fullers are ready to get 2010 going. We must look back though at see what we have accomplished. First Jay is making money again. Oh yeah it is great that he is working and making money instead of working and getting nothing. Kaelee proved herself an athlete, not just a dancer. Makenzie has more friends than she can count. Gavin got diagnosed with dyslexia (I know this should be bad but oh no I love it) He is catching up faster that we can keep up it is truly a blessing. Cache went to Sharing Time regularly in Nov, and Dec. without having a meltdown. I guess 2009 not was so bad.

Our blessings were endless. When living through it I did not count them as such but here are a few. Our family learned Empathy. We feel for everyone who doesn't have enough money to make ends meet. Yes I count this as a blessing because I did not feel this way previously. We did all we were supposed to and we still had to go through the challenge any way. We made it through together, stronger, and happier. This last year I learned that depression only wins when I let it. I don't have to live the perfect life it is most important that my family and I are truly happy. All of my friends are probably saying duh! But thanks for sticking with me and helping me enjoy my new happiness. The kids learned that siblings can be friends. I don't know if we are just at a stage but they all basically like each other. The girls stick together and the boys actually have fun with each other. Our blessings or numberless and depending on the day I can give you more or less. My personal blessing I found in 2009 is my husband. He is just Awesome! He is like my own energizer bunny he keeps going, head high he keeps going, he keeps me going. He is my best friend and my biggest fan and I am his biggest fan. So happy New Year Everyone I hope you can look back and love 2009 and welcome 2010.

Christmas 2009

Christmas Fuller Style. This year was the first year that Jay and I put off all Christmas shopping until the Dec 22nd. We had our "Favorites" dinner this year Jay requested Totinos Pizza Pockets, I chose Chicken Cordon Bleu, Kaelee picked Ambrosia, Makenzie picked funeral potatoes, Gavin picked Chocolate Cake and rolls, Cache had to have little smokies. Oh what a meal we had. For those who don't know about our silly tradition everyone having dinner with us gets to choose their favorite food. Some years it is all dessert, some all Mexican food, and some years a whole lot of foods that don't go together. The kids all work together on their choices so nobody chooses the same thing. It is how we do Christmas Eve. Christmas morning did not come early at our house. Jay told them all they couldn't get out of bed until 8am they all took him seriously! So we didn't get going until 7:30am Kaelee got her Ipod touch, Makenzie got her glitter bouncy ball and a beading kit, Gavin got his Spy kit, and Cache got his Ski Sled. We only had 1pair of pants that didn't fit and one set of walkie-talkies that had to go back. This was the first year in 13years that Jay didn't have to work on Christmas Eve and The Day after Christmas and we loved it. I hope everyone had as good as Christmas that we had. Merry Christmas Everyone!